I cry only in the shower

I cry only in the shower,

  for no one to see.

Am I hiding from them,

  or am I hiding from me?

I cry only in the shower,

  as it goes down the drain,

no marks on my face,

  not even a stain.

I cry only in the shower,

  with fear not to be seen,

I’m scared and ashamed

 of the burden I’ll be.

I cry only in the shower,

  to wash out my brain.

Am I fooling myself,

  am I being too vain?

I cry only in the shower,

  praying for appease,

I think I’ve gone crazy,

  with this stupid disease.

I cry only in the shower

  in hopes that one day,

I will cry and cry,

  all my tears away.