by Debra
There’s a longing inside me
It lies deep within my heart
To explain- to have you understand
That this pain I feel -is all consuming
Bit by bit- it’s tearing me apart
If there were visible signs- could you accept?
The person you loose- the one I turn into
The one that forgets- and is easily confused
Lost inside myself-consumed with self pity
Frustrated- short-tempered- snapping at you
I wish you could see- my constant companion
But there’s nothing to see- no blood flows from my ear
No bandages to change-no wounds to heal
No crutches to carry-no broken bones
With nothing to see-what’s there to fear?
If you could see- the battle that’s raging
Would you be angry with me? Or love me instead?
Could you forgive my thoughts- that come and go?
Understand my need- to scream and cry?
Recognize the turmoil I ‘m feeling- inside my head?
I hate this pain-which you can’t see
You can’t understand what’s occurring in me
The steady aching- sharp and consistent
The burning and piercing- the jumbling thoughts
The desire to escape-that which I can’t flee
There’s a longing inside me
For you to accept – this” pain” that assaults
To hold me close-when my words -push you away
I need to know- that you will love me forever
Believe in me -and forgive me my faults
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